Ramadhan Notelist

Ramadhan Mubarak :)

So I made a list which will highlight all of what I learnt spiritual, physically and emotionally  during this 30 day Ramadhan. Like I said, I want to change myself so better I jot down what I've got :)

1. Sins are bound to lose. Men and sins co-exist but never one. Just like water and oil. The gate of forgiveness is always open and it is our duty to fully ask repentance. We don't know which act will justify us, so keep repent. :) 7/06/2016

2.  The struggle of one is the struggle of all. The ummah needs a better you, a better me, a better Muslim. Each one of us have our own struggle and Allah notice every act of struggle to justify ourselves to become a better Muslim. Heaven is my goal, the relief of my pain. So couldn't I struggle at this temporary world for an ever lasting happiness in here-after? :) 8/06/2016

Change.

If life is about struggle, then my struggle is to change myself. If I fail to accomplish within this Ramadhan, then I'll fail.

3 things. Just three things. That's it.

Well, hello.

I'm not keen on typing such a long message, but due to the fact on my incapability on reminding myself important stuff right in my head, I have to write ( or type ). If you are by any chance reading this blog, well good on you. I'll do some quite a lengthy explanation on three major things that I believe have affected my life on these past few days or months.

Just three things. That's it.

For the next few weeks, during my internship I would spend some time typing on what have been circulated and articulated in my mind for the past 2015.

1. Auckland Malaysian Group of Thinkers.
2. How I see you, Malaysian,
3. My thoughts of Islam and how I train myself to train to think, Islamically. ( My opinion how madrasah tarbiyah should be done towards me? Lol. )

I hope this would be interesting when I read this again some time in future. I would want to see change in the life I live in.

You see, we all need to be dreamers.

A Muslim Thinker.

Let's think.

Discovering Me.

Never thought that I'll write here again. Some words need to be told as a reminder to myself. Just a self-checked , perhaps.

I've been doing a lot of things... and I have never put attempt to focus at least one.

Good in everything, Master of nothing.
That is what I am feeling right now.

 The epiphany of being left behind, undeveloped and stagnant have occurred to me for the past six months. Painful? Yes.

Melancholy, I finally took some time to sit and ponder. I am clear of my purpose of life but my attitude was the same. Satisfying? Nope. Horrifying? Yes.

This constant fear overpower me of what I could be: a human being. I could endeavour life further, but I chose to remain still. I realised that I'm not changing but I chose to remain afraid of change.

Could this be a sense of success? Success shall not be conquered by fear, instead it should be influenced by opportunities.

I have chose to live everyone's dream but I have never chose to live what I dreamt of.

A dream to educate. A consistent dream. A satisfying dream.

The resurrection after constant failure.

We don't need you.

Skeptically, not many youths truly appreciate what Tun Mahathir have done for this country. If there are hundreds of thousands of youths appreciate what he does, not many understand of his policies that he implemented. From a country of agriculture to a heavy industry country, Malaysia had flown through numerous rankings to emerge as one of the top notch countries of South East Asia,  behind Singapore.

Tun Mahathir is well known for his bravery. To the Whites, Europe or Asia Pacific, he's not afraid. He fought well defending the oppressed - mind, body  and attitude. A leader who've flew to Bosnia to help the Muslims who were oppressed, the leader who rejected the offer from IMF, the leader who realized the importance of dinar, the leader who officiates the only Muslim country that manufactured cars. A paradigm shift, I would say.

Talking about his attributes to the countries, countless. Say you're from Malaysia, the diaspora-origin Arabs would say " Malaysia, Mahathir Baguuuus". We will not be ashamed but proud to be called Malaysian, thanks to Tun. Congratulations for the 10th anniversary of retirement. The rakyat is still missing your essence of leadership. 

But we don't need you anymore, Tun. 

Look East Policy will always still be relevant to Malaysians. The Japanese attitude should always be a role model to the Malaysians. Punctuality, non-stop voyage of learning should be always attached to the morality of the Malaysians. How our country grew can be learnt from the Meiji Restoration. Japan, the first country in Asia to undergo Industry Revolution which help it to emerge as one of the global powers. There is much similarities that can be found from Japan's rise during the 19th centure and Malaysia's.

But Malaysians should not refrain themselves to only copy Japan. World trends now have changed. The 2008 economic downfall allowed Asia to overthrow Europe and the White's ego in International Monetary Fund and World Bank. 6 years have gone and the trends is an ongoing change. Asia is now prominent distinctively in economy and oil and Malaysia has to include itself in this game as well. The definition of Asia to me is non-other than China. Japan have left out. China constitute over 19% of population in the world and there's no sign of them to stop .Intellectual manpower is a great advantage to them. A country with a high GDP more than most of developed countries but still regarded as a developing country. 

It infuriates me how come Malaysia have been adoring the Whites again from scratch. 

It infuriates me how come Malaysia follows what they want, which is mainly to reserve their power.

Didn't history teach you enough? Or reading is only a spare time and is not deserved in your busy schedule? 

We do not need you, Tun to reign again as a Prime Minister. You've done well.

The rakyat needs a better leader than you. 

A leader who sees dimensions of opportunities and make the best of it.

Who thinks the best for the rakyat, not following what the rakyat thinks is the best. 

Who sees the future from the past.
A leader who listens.

As I go up, it's heavier.

Responsibility.

To those who don't appreciate, won't find the essence of it. I've always put this thought in consideration. As people are being supported to move further, more than people who are at his level, these people should be given more responsibilities.

One of the responsibilities is the responsibility for the less fortunate ones.

In this world, there are people who've been oppressed most of their lifetime and in Malaysia for the time being, Alhamdulillah wars  have not occurred yet, if it does (as in Lahad Datu) it is being taken care well of by the authorities. Thanks to the leaders who know how to take care of the boundaries of sensitivities , which I believe had been crossed so many times.

Read history and observe the world, a lot has changed but still there are a lot of things still remains that is not well covered or exposed by the mainstream media. If there is a list of responsibilities that people of the world can choose, I believe there is no sign for the list to stop.

We have to read to understand situations.

Unfortunately the young are too influenced by problems which they don't understand. "change" means a life to them. They have their own responsibility as students : they need to give their best shot but unfortunately desire conquered them. It is undeniable the young could change but without proper understanding, they will be like the previous young generation : short-lived. Give them some sugar , they'll shut up. What an irony.

Reading by far is one of the most essential component of changing.
It can change your world view.
It can change your attitude

However, bear in mind that reading is not enough. Action is the next stage.
Because to put one's thought into action is the most difficult thing in the world.