Dad

Dad. :D

This just popped out of my mind and I feel I want to write something about him.
This story maybe just a glimpse about what he always did to me, because what he truly did, is beyond what I may think about it as a son.

His name is Samsuddin, 54 years old.
A lecturer in International Islamic University Malaysia.
Born in Negeri Sembilan.
A dad to me.

Maybe this post is like a bit emotional to me, ( you can not read now, seriously eave this blog ) but in future, when I read this post, I should be proud of myself because I wrote about him.

I always thought that a father's love is not as cool as mother's love. Yeah that's true, haha. But I did not always see my father did it physically. You know, in front of my eyes. He did, just that it is not as cool as mum. Adoii apa compare ni haha xkena cerita. Okay back on track.

Until one moment, my impression changed by bits to bits, positively  That moment was on December 2009. It was during the SPM results. Erm I was in a class where it starts with capital A, Abu Bakar, not the first class lol. During the announcement of the results, it did not follow any of the rankings of the 8A's achievements ( like who was the highest scorer between the straight A's) , they just follow alphabetically. And my name was the first, Ahmad Shaqir. As I was jumping fly high, my dad screamed "That's my son, That's my son".

Then, I asked him why did he said like that, he said " I thought you're the first in the rankings, ". Well that made me laugh, no way I'll get the top rankings, haha. But to my dad, it was joy.

He was strict to me, but he was really kind to me as I was the last child. anak bongsu :p
During my SPM years, my dad was like the type, " xpe, blaja je, blaja ikut kemampuan " and I was like " Heyy mana boleh, belajar kena betul2 lah " and that moment, I think my father understands more than I did. He did not agree to a certain extent with the current education as he said, " Our system is exam oriented" means that this not a good way to survive university. So he was cool, and I'm the one who's struggling.

Then during my SPM results, my dad was amazed when he saw my results, maybe out of his expectation. To me, I'm surprised too, haha. But it was acceptable if compared to what hardship I've been through.  cheh konon

Then I went into my preparation, it was different. My father was the one who pressured me all the time, in a positive way. I did not understand why, but he kept on doing that. My first sem results were not good, and he kept scolding. I did not understand. Then now, I followed his advise and my results turned out to be better than before. Maybe he tried to avoid me from any mistakes on what he did, perhaps. Only God knows.

This is not about my studies, it's about the blessing I'm talking about.
I hope it is still early that I realised how my father greatly affected my life.
Sometimes there were bad thoughts,
What if I finished my studies, he will be too old?
Do I have the chance to do anything with him later in the future?

Do I still have the chance to say, " you're the greatest dad ! " ?

I remembered what my brother said " Death is near us, nearer than anyone could guess. It's around us".
Thinking about what my dad did for me, extroadinary. He's cool in front of me, but behind me? Maybe he worried about my studies, my finance, my health while I am joyfully living in college.

So what could I do?
Answer, pray for their health, ask Allah to protect them and bless them.
Be kind to them, call them many times ( working on it) , anything what a son should do.
This thing really changed me, a lot.

I hope that, he'll be there always in my heart.

Sorry for grammatical mistakes, and a bit emotional lol. To me, this is cool :D